My children have inspired me to grow as a person. My son who is 4 now- was born very premature ,in the 6th month of pregnancy. I was so scared every second of the day that he would die. He stayed in the NICU for 3 1/2 months almost 1hr and a half away from my house. I was working at walmart at the time- so what time I wasn't in Louisville with my baby boy, I was at work. While I was at work- I was always thinking about him, and every second I could- call and check on him. It was always RIGHT THERE in my face that my son could die at any moment. I was a nervous wreck. I would drive up there by myself after work, and sometimes stay in the parking lot in my car. The nurses found out and made me start sleeping in the lobby. They said there had been a lot of break-ins in the parking lot, and didn't want me hurt or killed...ugh! I didn't EVEN think about it. I was just trying to save money, so that the next time I got off from work, I could be there.
They change your life because they let you know how strong you can be, how much you would fight for them, how far down your love goes, how much character and courage that they give you. I know that I am not the only one, there are women just like me. That spend all the time in the world with their kids. Actually my kids hardly even go anywhere. No- I can't seem to get much done, but it's well worth it.
He showed me that to believe in myself, as well as prayer and the love that radiated from my every being could make him KNOW how much I cared for him and willed him to live. It feels so helpless being a mom of a premature baby. You see that poor little baby- lying there with tubes all over and i.v.'s and there was nothing I would do. So I just sat there... and stared. We couldn't hold him for 3-4 weeks after his birth because he was so small.
Something so small is what changed me. A little 1 lb 13 oz baby. He gave me EVERYTHING.